My little girl is living proof that even children
who are adopted as babies,
are children from "hard places".
Let me take a step back…
often people think that because a child is adopted
and has stability at an early age,
they will have an easy transition
and will have no insecurities…
At 16 months old Jailyn didn't no what to do with solid food,
she could not crawl or walk,
she could barely sit up on her own,
developmentally she was really like a 6 month old.
We brought this little "lovie" to China for Jailyn
when she was just 16 months old.
At that time,
she didn't like stuffed animals or blankets -
she had never experience something so soft and cuddly
so she didn't know what to do with it.
When she came home, we kept the lovie in her crib,
again, she was never interested in it…
when I put her crib bedding away,
I also put the lovie away.
I was cleaning my closet and found the lovie and her crib quilt
and gave them to Jailyn.
I told her the stories behind both items.
And she cuddles with them constantly now.
No one else is allowed to touch them,
and she is very adamant about protecting these items.
"These are very special to me.
My momma bought and made these for me before she even held me.
She loved me before meeting me."
and then the saddest part,
"She loved me when no one else did."
Even my confident, happy-go-lucky girlie
has a side of her that breaks my heart as she still
feels the pain of being left alone for 16 months.