This week, I was hoping to do a daily blog post of
our experience when we first met Jorja,
our time in China,
but as I tried to put some posts together
I was brought to tears,
and had to stop to pray.
Our trip to China was not the adoption fantasy that every mother
and many times
We had a rough start to our mother - daughter relationship.
She fought the idea of her needing a mother.
I grieved that she wasn't accepting me.
She was a tiny thing -
weeks away from being 5 years old and
weighing about 25 lbs.
But she was strong,
and could stare you down with death ray eyes.
As we celebrated her 3 years of being in our arms,
I am brought to my knees.
God has truly
"...bestowed on her a crown of beauty instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of spirit of despair.
they are called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord
for the display of his splendor."
He is healing her moment by moment
day by day.
I look back at photos of her frail body,
her short, short, short hair,
her scared little self
and am incredibly thankful I do not see
that little girl anymore.
Today God has made her happy-go-lucky!
He has made her able to trust her momma.
He is healing her as she knows
she will have food every day,
I can still remember the first time she felt
her tummy ache because she had eaten too much -
a feeling she had never experienced.
and when she sleeps at night -
she knows her family will still be
here in the morning.
She loves to run, play, sing, cuddle and giggle.
He has allowed her to remembers her past
but she does not live in her past.
Only God could have turned this hardened
little girl into the loving, giving, sweetie
that she is today!
We praise him daily that He is the one who
"heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds."
Jorja shines with God's love.