Attaching hurts!

Last night Daddy and the big kids had to go out for a while,

as the little kiddo's were heading to bed.

Daddy had earlier taken Donovan to his soccer practice,

Donovan loves his alone time with Daddy

and hates to let go.

As Daddy left Donovan sat on the stairs watching them leave,

crying.

Real crocodile tears.

Broke my heart.

After they left,

Donovan and I were able to sit and chat on the stairs. 

He loves Daddy soooo much!

It is soooo hard to let him go!

and I know that he is scared that his Daddy wont come back for him.

The pain of attaching and loving another person can be so painful!

Being willing to open your heart to another person 

who may disappoint you after being hurt so bad 

in the past 

really hurts sometimes.

I was reminded of our first week in Ethiopia,

when we first met our boys.

Every day they opened up to us more and more.

They began to trust us,

to love us,

to want to come home with us.

But, our last day there - 

both boys,

especially Donovan began to act out.

He was disobedient to everyone,

he was pouty,

and did a lot of whining.

We knew that he was putting up his defenses,

that he wanted to love,

but he knew we were leaving and didn't want to be hurt again.

Ohhhh our sweet boy!

The hurt that he has endured breaks my heart,

but we are thankful that God can repair his heart,

and we know HE will!

To give them beauty for ashes,
      The oil of joy for mourning,
      The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
      That they may be called trees of righteousness,
      The planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified.”

Isaiah 61:3




We are thankful that God is healing our sons
and daughters!
They do love being family!