Wednesday, April 28, 2010

"Here I am, send me."

Psalms 6:8

This is easier said then done.

In the adoption community we use this verse often,
as we encourage others to take a leap of faith
and obey God's calling to care for the orphans.

For me, 
loving a child that did not grow in my womb,
is not an issue. 
Many kids and adults who know me,
know that I will allow my 
Mama  Bear attitude to come out
when I see any child in a bad situation.
(I drive my big kids schools nuts 
with this personality issue.)

I have been struggling with what 
God is calling me to do
in my own home.

Home schooling.

This scares me to death!

I have been home schooling Jorja for the most part of 
this past year -
and it has gone well.  
There are days that I love it and 
days that I wish I could just drop her off at the entrance of our 
neighborhood school,
give her a kiss and send her on her merry way.

seeing how far she has come in the last 6 months.
Academically she is understanding.
Socially she is  growing.
She is gaining confidence in who she is,
our relationship is getting closer and closer!
She is succeeding! 

So, what do I do with this -
I begin thinking, 
"I did my job, I'm done,
she can go back to school next year."

Oh, but God has a different opinion.

And now for that step of faith!
Am I really willing to say,
"Here I am, send me."
When I don't want to go?

To tell God, "I can't"
Is truly a slap in the face.
He created me,
He is asking of me,
He will equip me.
What am I so afraid of?

So, here, publicly, 
I am committing to home schooling 
Jorja and Jailyn
next year. 
(I type this with sweaty palms)
I'm scared to death! 

But, when God asks -
I must obey.

Any home schoolers out there?
I'd love any advice you can give me!
We need hands on curriculum - 
I get too bored! :) 
Thank you for your prayers and advice!


Brad and/or Bree Banks said...

Jodi, did your board from the retreat last year say this? Mine did, and look where He sent me! My palms may not be sweaty right now, but they sure were the other day, and I'm sure they will be many more times before this adventure over. Hang in there! Maybe someday we can get Jamison together with the girls for some homeschool lessons...he likes maps and letters! ;)

Hugs & Prayers,

Catching Butterflies 3 said...

Jodi, I wish I could home school Philip but I would be put in Jail! You are blessed to have the option.

Kim K. said...

My husband and I both work for public education, but I know of lots of adoptive Mommies who do homeschool. One of my favorite homeschooling adoptive Mommies, can be found at:

Feel free to use my name if you talk to her. Leslie and I are connected because we both have SN heart children.

bugs parents said...


Welcome to the club, my friend!!!

As you know, we started hs-ing E because they told us she would fail K if she missed too many days while in China adopting her brother - go figure! We did well enough with K, that we moved on to first grade. By that point, I've enjoyed having her home with me so much, I can't imagine sending her to school. I'm a bit scared for next year - we'll have one in 2nd, 1st and K plus a pre-schooler!

All that said, I would find a hs curriculum fair in your area. It's great to be able to see, touch, feel and look at the various programs available. There are lots of Yahoo groups for hs-ing so I'll send you the links.

I'll also send you an email with lots of thoughts/impressions I have on all the curriculums we've looked at. We're using Sonlight and love it - but it doesn't have a ton of hands on things.

Anyway, I think you're going to LOVE it! And, I KNOW you're going to do a great job at it, too!

Anonymous said...

Gather roses while you may. ....................................................


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